Thankful Thursdays [12 of 50]: '09 = Time 2 Shine!

Twenty-one of the 1000 Things I'm Thankful I've Experienced in My Lifetime:

221) HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
I'm so thankful to be here to see a NEW YEAR: 2009!

222) I enjoyed time with family and friends during this Holiday Season.

223) I helped my mother celebrate her 7? birthday (I still have no idea the age of most of the women in my family! LOL!)

224) I have great genes! At 40+ most think I'm in my late 20s or early 30s;-).

225) I'm young enough to appreciate that I came of age with Hip-Hop.

226) I'm old enough to appreciate Classic Ole Skool R&B.

227) I'm DC raised enough to appreciate Go-Go;-).

228) DC used to be called "De Country" by some family members;-), so I'm also country enough to enjoy the "new" music genre from Da Durteh;-).

229) My life experience is broad enough that I appreciate a wide variety of music genres from Blue Grass, Opera, Gospel, House, Classical, Jazz, Blues, International/World, (easy) Rock, pretty much anything except that hard-core, head-banging acid type of rock;-).

230) That I can sit still! That "small" skill has gotten me into a lot of places & kept me out of a lot of trouble;-).

231) I'm a supah stah! Love isn't something we earn - we deserve it! Tell 'em Floetry:


232) I am loving!

233) I am lovable!

234) I am forgiving!

235) I am forgivable!

236) I am beautiful inside AND OUT!

237) I appreciate the beauty in & around me!

238) I am music!

239) I am JOY!

240) I am DANCING through this LIFE! Join me - cuz ... u can dance if u want to;-)

*Disclaimer: some of the above may be repeats that have appeared on this blog before - and tha's FINE, too! LOL!!

The First Thankful Thursday [1-20].
Second Thankful Thursday [21-40].
Third Thankful Thursday [41-60].
Fourth Thankful Thursday [61-80].
Fifth Thankful Thursday [81-100].
Sixth Thankful Thursday [101-120]
Seventh Thankful Thursday [121- 140].
Eighth Thankful Thursday [141-160].
Ninth Thankful Thursday [161-180].
Tenth Thankful Thursday [181-200].
Eleventh Thankful Thursday [201-220].

Thankful Thursday ... on Sunday: The HollerDay Edition;-) [11 of 50]

Wow! I guess my new gig, writing, reading & socializing (on AND offline;-) has kept me busy! The last time I wrote my Thankful Thursday post was wayyyy back in July. Who knew It would take me this long to sit down to write the next:

Twenty of the 1000 Things I'm Thankful I've Experienced in My Lifetime:

201) Thankful that I can be so relaxed during this economy. I am employed in a stable "field" & come from a long line of folk who know that we are always going to be ok!

202) Glad that my family doesn't make such a big deal of this merchant driven season, so I can relax and enjoy the holiday lights & my days off of work.

203) Thankful for facebook where I've reconnected with many long, "lost" friends & have even made new acquaintances!

204) Thankful for blogging: the outlet & feedback has been priceless. The relationships that have emerged from this has been incredible!

205) Thanks to my very own YouTube channel I can even promote videos of my readings & weight-loss "reality" show;-).

206) I am blessed with great friends here in NYC who've helped me make it through the trials & tribulations of this past year (& my two prior years of "partial" employment).

207) Thankful that my Blog-Sistah Sharon came to visit me here in NYC, had a blast, blogged about it & created this wonderful Smile Box Treat!

208) So blessed with the ability to welcome in new love despite past disappointments & hurt feelings!

209) Thankful that I have experienced "easy" romantic disappointments -or- have the genetic fortitude to overcome such let-downs with little damage to myself.

210) New Beginnings (new minutes, hours, days, months & years;-) are true blessings!

211) Thankful that the stories I entertain myself with are also entertaining to others! Publishing this year has taught me that (& looking forward to publishing more in 2009:-).

212) Thankful for snow! It's the Winter's best "decorative" feature:-).

213) I love Winter Holiday lights: they cheer me up during the initial phase of these shortened days. Makes it easier to get through January & February;-).

214) Thankful that this past November's election was such a landslide victory for Brother Barack Obama & his beautiful family! Thanks to the upcoming historic inaugural celebration, January 2009 will be a major party month -- especially for me & all January babies;-).

215) Thankful for the blessing of employment so that I can help my loved ones financially - especially my parents. I just realized: I'm someone's bail-out! ;-)

216) Thankful that I can be a blessing to others!

217) It seems that this year I have learned to accept blessings from others - not as easy as it sounds. So thankful that I've learned to do so in this lifetime.

218) My partners & I almost completely sold out the first printing of our first compilation project! We're gearing up for our next collaboration in 2009! See my sidebar for the Holiday Sale. Once we sell out completely, that's it: there will be no reprint! Get the collector's edition of Bloggers' Delight, Vol. 1 while U can;-).

219) Thankful for all of the folk who supported Bloggers' Delight, Vol. 1: the book AND the release parties! We have learned a great deal & are looking forward to improvements for Vol 2 in 2009!

220) Several folks have sent submissions already for Bloggers' Delight, Vol. 2 and that is such a blessing! The due date isn't until 5pm EST Sunday January 18, 2009. This level of enthusiasm is Priceless & I'm truly thankful to be part of something so exciting!

May You ALL Enjoy MANY Blessings this Holiday & Every Day!!

The First Thankful Thursday [1-20].
Second Thankful Thursday [21-40].
Third Thankful Thursday [41-60].
Fourth Thankful Thursday [61-80].
Fifth Thankful Thursday [81-100].
Sixth Thankful Thursday [101-120]
Seventh Thankful Thursday [121- 140].
Eighth Thankful Thursday [141-160].
Ninth Thankful Thursday [161-180].
Tenth Thankful Thursday [181-200].

... A 'Musing Myself...

I took a quick trip 'round blog-land (left no comments: just lookin' thanx;-). Came back to my blog-home inspired to list a few Random Musings (ok, most inspired by 12Kyle, but there are others;-):

• Last weekend while hanging out we met Haywood Nelson (who's famous for his character Dwayne on What's Happening:-). He was really cool. Despite the drinks, I proudly refrained from saying: Hey Hey Hey Hey!

• Now that we have a Black President-elect with two young children: will more Black folk educate their kids in private schools? Will attitudes about education change much for Black folk?

• It's funny to me to hear different regions' & different cultures' opinions on the roles for men & women. Why do some men still think women need to cook & do all sorts of sexual favors to "hold onto" their man now-a-days? How many of those men who think that way are continuing in their roles as: the pursuer, fix-it man & protector of his domain?

• Someone asked what my specialty was and I responded: "I make a mean phone call!" LMAO!! Whew, I crax me UPP!
  

• Considering all the statistics about Blacks having the highest rate of preventable diseases that have been proven to be caused by foods we eat: Why are Black folk STILL EATING PORK, fried foods & putting sugar in & on everything from greens to rice to black-eyed peas? JESUS Help us learn from the error of our ways!!

• Would you rather be wanted or needed by your significant other?

• If your family decided to skip a Holiday due to the economy - which would U prefer to skip? Or how would U celebrate it differently to reduce expenses?

• I'm excited to connect with so many of my long "lost" friends & former students (now fellow alumni;-) via facebook. I'm proud of and happy for one of my former students/fellow alum: Demetrius Gross who is acting & appearing on Heroes. I've never watched it before, but I watched his episode. Check him out!

Happy ThanxGiving 2 ya!

Thank U is insufficient...

...but I can't say it enough. The messages of praise, encouragement & support that have been left for me on facebook, twitter, my voice mail, and my email is truly, truly awe-inspiring. The physical & spiritual attendees & energies surrounding us at the Grand Finale Celebration for Bloggers' Delight, vol. 1 have filled me with such joy.

Although it's inadequate: Thank U!

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I've NEVER...

I've never...
... been molested.

I've never...
... been jumped.

I've never...
... been forced to join a gang or any organization for protection.

I've never...
... been ignorant of my parents.

I've never...
... been without a roof over my head.

I've never...
... been truly hungry to the point of starving.

I've never...
... been flat broke where I didn't have a few coins in my pockets.

I've never...
... been so filled with self-hatred that I self mutilated.

I've never...
... been so lonely that I endured an abusive relationship.

I've never...
... been more THANKFUL in my LIFE for my Life!!

This isn't a poem - just a prayer of thanx to The Creator for life's blessings. This was inspired by students & loved ones who've endured so much around me. I am amazed, encouraged & motivated by their strength!

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Thankful Thursdays [10 of 50]

Twenty of the 1000 Things I'm Thankful I've Experienced in My Lifetime:

181) Renewal! I had no blatant* refined sugar for _4_ days this week. I am renewing my vows to MYSELF, My DREAMS & MY GOALS! (*sugar is slipped into the ingredients of so many things I don't know if I can eliminate it completely - but I read labels now & avoid the obvious: pastries, putting sugar into drinks or onto anything, etc.). I feel the unwanted pounds slippin' off already;-). LOL!

182) Determination! I can make it to the fourth flight (of 6:-) at work before feeling winded!

183) The location for the NYC Bloggers' Delight, vol. 1 celebration is confirmed for Oct. 11th! That's a huge relief;-). I'm really looking forward to it. See details in the right side bar;-).

184) This is future - but I'm still hyped & glad to experience Anticipation for it: Going to a FLY V.I.P. party tonight being hosted by one of my former class-mates who I haven't seen in AGES! It's SOOO exclusive the invite says no cameras allowed;-). I'm really looking forward to the REUNION in this setting!

185) More Anticipation: I'm excited that I'm going to return to the ATL for 2nd time this summer on Friday after work for the NBCC! My first time at the NBCC;-).

186) I am loving the first month at my new j.o.b.! My new boss is so humane!

187) I know I've only been off sugar for less than a week - but I do declare I have more energy! I still need a good eight hours of sleep, but I am wondering if getting up in the early mornings will be easier for me after more time without sugar. Hmmmm, stay tuned (I recall the obvious weight loss the last time I did this - now, I'll pay attention to my sleep pattern;-).

188) I'm thankful that I am motivated to be involved in alumni activities for my alma mater where I attended grade school & high school. My involvement is my way of giving back. It is my hope to increase the involvement of more alum of Color. Attended an alumni meeting to begin planning gatherings for those of us who've moved to NYC this week: I was the only person of Color AND the only female: GOOOOOO ME! ;-)

189) I had some fantastic teachers at that school - they were so passionate about what they taught! I don't think I had college professors who were as dedicated.

190) I have great memories of my High School classes & teachers. Even those I couldn't stand were excellent at their subject (well, most of 'em were;-). One of my faves was this quirky li'l English teacher: thanx to him I LOVE Faulkner's Sound & The Fury.

191) This was one of my funniest HS teacher memories: We had a young science teacher who couldn't have been much older than us - she must've been fresh outta college. Back story: our class was infamous - either teachers loved us or hated us as a whole. Generally, we were a class full of smart-alecks who had a good time ribbing teachers. If teachers were cool they'd love us - if teachers were stringent - they tended to hate us. So, this day we filed into science class & the young teacher's patience was low. She blasted us as soon as our chatty azzes settled in: "NOBODY say another WORD! IF ANYone says another word U're all getting put out!" Whoa! We look around at each other like, "Dayummm, she must not have gotten any last night..." Generally, that teacher was cool with us, so we were surprised. We were pin-drop quiet. Then FD raised his hand. The teacher looked at him, "YES, FD...what is it?" "Ummm, what time do u have?" She went OFF: "GET OUT! ALL OF U! GET! OUTTTT!" At first we were shocked, could she be serious - was she really dismissing the entire class? When we realized that she was serious: SWEEEEET! Free period! On the way outta class several of the guys gave FD dap! LOLOLOL!

I wonder what happened to that teacher? And where's FD - he was one of my hanging partners, too!

192) I still have several of my pieces that I wrote for HS English. When I re-read them I still think they are quite entertaining & well written. My favorite comment was written on an exam that I got an A on: "She's proven she can [compete] with the best of them!" [I think he wrote compete, something to that effect ... have to dig it out & look again;-)]

193) I love when I get a good bargain & am not easily fooled! Went shopping for a new carry-on with wheels. Found a great deal on the internet, printed it out & went to one Macy's near my job. Sales dude tried to tell me it was an Internet only special. I side-eyed him & said, "That's not specified here on the print out." "Well, you'd have to pay shipping charges that you don't have to pay in stores." "Uh, thanx!" U know I left that spot with the quickness - shady jokah! I checked out the Macy's near my home and not only was the luggage the same price as my print out, but as I perused the selection I found an even BETTER deal that wasn't on the Internet! YAAYYYY!

194) I've experienced some great views! Last week, I stated how blessed I am with sight. As I think back on all of my homes I've enjoyed the views from them all. This NYC home has a wonderful sky view. My DC home overlooked downtown DC. The image above is out one of the windows of the home my great grandfather had built in "the country" during the days of The Great Depression. A nice view is pretty important to me when selecting a place to live.

195) I have appreciation for simple things.

196) I am "low maintenance", but "high brow" which I think confuses men who are interested in me. I like it about myself - but understand that it's difficult to "get". Typical gifts that gain the approval of other women is not what I need or want. I like that it will require a man to really pay attention to get to know me;-). See the video below [specifically counts 05:06-06:25] to see what I mean!

197) I am loving living this new "writer's" life - most of my travels now are writer focused!

198) I LOVE the school calendar & schedule (except for the early mornings;-)! When I got my new teacher packet in the mail today I was as excited as a kid! Still love that fresh start to the new school year after all these years!

199) I'm thankful to be a primarily optimistic person!

200) I'm SO blessed that I have TWO HUNDRED EXPERIENCES to LIST;-). Here's to 800 more! And so far, I haven't repeated any (i don't think;-)! Wooo Hooooo!

The First Thankful Thursday [1-20].
Second Thankful Thursday [21-40].
Third Thankful Thursday [41-60].
Fourth Thankful Thursday [61-80].
Fifth Thankful Thursday [81-100].
Sixth Thankful Thursday [101-120]
Seventh Thankful Thursday [121- 140].
Eighth Thankful Thursday [141-160].
Ninth Thankful Thursday [161-180].

Thankful Thursdays [9 of 50]

Twenty of the 1000 Things I'm Thankful I've Experienced in My Lifetime:

161) Watching my parents cross the threshold into their 70's. A blessing neither of them had with their own parents. God willing, we will celebrate well into their 90's in this earthly realm together.

162) My true friendships are maturing right along with me!

163) The skill set to drive as well as I do. High compliment last weekend: A new to me sistah-friend who drove us to the Harlem Book Fair observed me as I gave her directions to the spot (I was sitting behind her) and said, "You look like you can drive. When we stop next time you take the wheel." LOL!

164) I'm able to walk 6 flights of stairs at work (112 steps;-), 4 flights of stairs at home (57 steps) & walk across the Brooklyn Bridge (1.13 miles one way;-) & then some all in the same day!

165) The Eye Candy along my commute makes going to work a treat! Each time the train doors open is like opening a box of chocolates: What Flavors will be inside today?

166) The stories I make up in my head about the folk I see on the train - makes the commute entertaining, as well!

167) Living & commuting in NYC: it is a people watching paradise!

168) The iPod. When I wanna tune out the noise of the city I turn on my own grooves in a lightweight li'l gadget.

169) Brothers who boost my ego when I'm feeling less than "on top of my game". Thanx, I needed that!

170) The joyous childhood memories of chasing fireflies in summer evenings.

171) Childhood joy of staying out after the street lights came on playing tag, etc. - a summer time ONLY treat!

172) The hilarity of growing up, returning to alumni gatherings & sharing a drink with my teachers then BEING the teacher sharing drinks with former students at reunions (especially since I returned to teach at my alma mater)!

173) That I was one of the teachers who kids thought were fun since I would play tag & capture the flag with my students. Kids get the biggest kick out of that & I get a fun work out;-)!

174) I did visit the observation deck at the World Trade Center in NYC prior to moving here (I do wish we had taken photos).

175) I love holding hands with a love interest. Men's hands fascinate me & I continue to be thrilled by the hands of a man who holds my interest. Hands are very sensual to me. During my early days of "courting" hand holding was supreme fore-play. I hope young lovers today enjoy it - they don't know what they're missing if they don't!

All Five Senses:

176) Sight: I'm SOO thankful that I am blessed to enjoy the lovely visuals of this earth: beautiful men (of course;-), Sunrises & Sunsets, flowers & plants, so many things to SEE!

177) Hearing: I'm thankful that I'm blessed with the ability to hear: myriad styles of music created, birds singing, sweetness being whispered into my ear, ****sigh****

178) Taste: U all know I LOVE the taste of great culinary arts!! And we won't even discuss the sweet kisses I've been blessed with;-)!!

179) Smell: The ability to smell flowers, delicious meals in preparation, cleanliness layered with the cologne of a cutie!!

180) Touch: I am thankful that I can ENJOY the sense of Touch!! (I dated a man once who did not like to be touched and I felt sorry for him. He helped me to understand what a blessing it is to have the ability AND to RELISH in the PLEASURE of it).

The First Thankful Thursday [1-20].
Second Thankful Thursday [21-40].
Third Thankful Thursday [41-60].
Fourth Thankful Thursday [61-80].
Fifth Thankful Thursday [81-100].
Sixth Thankful Thursday [101-120].
Seventh Thankful Thursday [121- 140].
Eighth Thankful Thursday [141-160].

Thankful Thursdays [7 of 50]

Twenty of the 1000 Things I'm Thankful I've Experienced in My Lifetime:

121) I've enjoyed the first week at my newest gig! Fitness bonuses built in: my office/classroom is on the 6th floor - I've taken the stairs most of the week - plan to keep it up. At the end of each work day I walk across the Brooklyn Bridge - and plan to each day I don't have appointments or terrible weather to prevent me from doing so!

122) My independence! Able to take good care of myself! Have been blessed to live in my own home without the need for room-mates since I graduated from college.

123) My INTER-dependence! I am aware of and thankful for all of the assistance & support of others in my life!

124) Faith - it may flicker & waver -- but it keeps me going!

125) Delicious chocolates - not really sure if I've eaten any rare or truly expensive chocolate, but the delightful taste deemed it's price tag or status unimportant;-).

126) Belting out a good song & welling up with JOY in it! All of these recent music blog posts have reminded me how much I love to sing - especially in the car with the speakers turned up HIGH!

127) My mother's cooking! Especially her soups, greens and mac & cheese!! I can't eat the mac & cheese as much as I used to - but I relish in it when I do;-). I have happily eaten a full pot of her greens all by myself! LOL!

128) My fore parents' genes! We're a good lookin' family of folk who all look younger than our "official" ages. Our ancestors left us "all this" & intelligence, too! ;-)

129) The fact that I attract younger men has lead to several funny encounters. My fave funny younger man story (I may have "told it" here before but it's funny enough to repeat on MY Blog;-): Jokingly told my date the last movie I'd seen was "Cooley High". He squinted to look at me closely and asked, "You saw that in the THEATER?" I chuckle e'ry TIME I recall that experience! LOL!

130) I came of age at a time when there were many loving movies of Proud Black folk in Theaters (walk in or at the drive in;-) and I can PROUDLY say I saw them IN the THEATER: Cooley High, Claudine, Bingo Long & the Traveling All Stars, Piece of the Action, Let's Do it Again, UpTown Saturday Night, Cotton Comes to Harlem, Come Back Charleston Blue, Greased Lightening, and MY GIRL: Cleopatra Jones along with others.

131) My Movie Heros & Sheros looked like shades of me: Cleopatra Jones (Tamara Dobson! The ORIGINAL TOP MODEL;-), Bernie Casey (I STILL have a crush on that man!;-), Calvin Lockhart (dayummmm that Brother was fine may he Rest in Peace), etc.

132) Despite my employment setback of the past two years I've been able to maintain a good credit rating!

133) The two women in my family who I DID get to watch closely as they made their transitions to "the otherside" did so with determination & grace. They were the embodiment of "Living a good life & Dying a good death."

134) Those two women pooled and managed their finances so well that they often paid cash for larget ticket items like cars. They inspired me - especially since they came of age during The Great Depression.

135) Thanx to the legacy & tenacity of my fore parents I have little concern about this "gas crisis". I come from a line of creative people who weather stormy times. I'm glad that I experienced some time with those elders!

136) May have stated this one before but it's worth repeating - especially as I am proudly published: I have met many great authors & have books signed by them: Nikki Giovanni, Angela Davis, Haki Madabuti, Cornel West, Beverly Jenkins, among others...

137) My prayers have been granted to attend this year's National Book Club Conference where I look forward to meeting more authors, as well as partying in da ATL again;-)!

138) I have met such AMAZING people simply by blogging! Thanx to blogging I've become a published author and my first piece is part of the collection with one of the Featured Authors of the NBCC! Go 'head on, MIZ!! ;-)

139) I've been invited to read & sign books at The Bronx Museum of Arts in August as part of their First Wednesday's series of local Bronx authors! U know I'll be posting details of THAT!

140) Blogging saved my life during these two years of partial employment when I had so much time on my hands. I look forward to connecting with Bloggers in The REAL world now that I won't be able to blog as much as I have been.

The First Thankful Thursday [1-20].
Second Thankful Thursday [21-40].
Third Thankful Thursday [41-60].
Fourth Thankful Thursday [61-80].
Fifth Thankful Thursday [81-100].
Sixth Thankful Thursday [101-120].

Thankful Thursdays [5 of 50]

Twenty of the 1000 Things I'm Thankful I've Experienced in My Lifetime:

81) I am thankful that I have a HILARIOUS sense of humor: I love laughing & like it when I can make others laugh. Laughter really does heal what ails me!

82) I don't take myself too seriously. Quick funny story that still cracked me & Miz UP as we recalled it when I was in da ATL:

At The RT convention I bunked with fellow authors: Miz & Jean. During the day the featured authors gave away so many treats & one of my faves was the lip balm cuz I hate dry lips. I assumed all of the balms were clear, so as we prepared for bed I just grabbed one & swiped it carelessly across my lips. But, it felt drier & thicker than lip balm should and I said aloud: "This don't feel like lip balm." Jean froze in place across the room, stared & responded slowly as one might to a mad-man: "Uhhh, it don't look like it, either. You may wanna check the mirror." I stepped into the bathroom & faced The Joker in the Mirror! As I wiped the fiery red "lip balm" off my lips, Miz calmly commented from the computer where she was working: "I was just hoping u wouldn't stab us in our sleep, Bride of Chucky." I know that may be one of those "u had to be there moments" - but if u have any imagination u can imagine how crazy I must have looked! LOL!

83) That I've been to see some of the funniest comedians EVAH, Live & in person: Richard Pryor (that was a New Year's Eve show to remember! R.I.P. Brothah), Mike Britt, Capone, Rob Stapleton, Paul Mooney, Rasheed (R.I.P. Bruh), Ced the Entertainer along with his host of up & coming comedians, Monique, to name a few. Only seen a few women comedians live & sadly I don't recall more of their names - but I would love to see this chica live: Vanessa Fraction.

84) I've said it before, and I'll say it again: I have some of THE funniest family members: from the babies to the elders! Sometimes I wish I could record our family gatherings - but then, it wouldn't be the same if folk knew they were "on".

85) Most of my friends are funny!

86) My college sweet-heart was a straight FOOL! Dayummm, I miss being with that lovable clown! Thinking about him still makes me smile. *Sigh* too bad going back has never been a good thing for me ...

87) That my prayer to work and become business partners with folk I actually enjoy hanging out with is coming true! My new j.o.b. I'm part of the coolest department! Where else do U start your job with hugz? LOL! And I'm excited about all the biz ventures I'm starting up. I read once that Chris Rock said for him that going to work was like going to hang out. I'm getting there! Whoever said don't mix business & pleasure was wrong!! Pleasure is serious business to me;-).

88) I have enjoyed some of the funniest moments at work while teaching! It's the hilarity of students that makes me keep returning to the class-room. Even during "hellish" dayz there is usually some hilarious episode. I attempt to jot down some of those moments because I think it'll be a great book. I love it when my students share in the laugh with me.

Another Quick funny story: I tend to be sarcastic and most of my students are aware of that, so they don't take it personal. This time it back-fired on me and all I could do was laugh. When teaching computers one of the routines I get my students into is to immediately begin to practice touch typing as the "dribble" into my class from various locations. They all had arrived and it was time for me to start the lesson. As I called their attention to the front I counted down. One student wanted to finish her typing level and called out: "One sec!" I sarcastically called back: "No! No more secs ... secONDS, no more seconds!" It was too late - they were in fourth grade hysterics!

89) I love private jokes and am thankful that I've enjoyed & continue to enjoy quite a few with my Daddy & my best friends! U know those jokes that someone else will unwittingly say a word that triggers giggles! I am always quick to share the inside joke so folk won't feel left out or think we're laughing at them. Generally, after being told about the inside joke the "new" person will roll their eyes or give that patronizing smile - which makes us laugh even more! LOL!

90) I like that I am pretty adventurous and brave. I did not always believe this, but I am thankful to BE as adventurous as I am.

91) I've mentioned this before briefly: Moving to NYC without having any family here and only knowing ONE other person/dear friend - is one of the brave things I've done. I am blessed with a loving community of friends (some are re-discovered from my past & some new to me;-).

92) Joining the US Navy was very brave for me - and it felt like a brave thing to do! Never knew that I would miss my family & friends so much until I could only call when I was allowed specific phone calls with time limits. I have a greater respect for those who sacrifice so much to serve this country I call home! I am not ashamed to admit that this Grown & Sexy Sistah cried herself to sleep for the first two weeks of boot camp. I had never been so homesick! I learned a great deal about me during that "short" time.

93) All I need is a credit card and a map and I will find my way anywhere in the USA if I tell someone I'll meet them "there". I've always liked maps - even as a little girl maps fascinated me. I helped my father read the map as he drove during family trips because "all those lines" frustrated everyone else. LOL!

94) I am thankful that I no longer have to be the center of attention. I can enjoy parties just by chillin' & watchin' others have a great time! But, I can easily step into that spot light if need be;-).

95) Thankfully, I've lived through some of the hilarious risks that are taken as a youngstah! Now, those risks (which I'll let your imagination run with) are simply experiences I can look back at and smile about - thankful I had them & lived to remember them (cuz some things are better left unsaid;-).

96) That someone created computers, the Internet & blogs (& opened it up for civilian use;-) so that I could expand my circle of friends and even improve my career! Blogging really has been an amazing phenomena for me!

97) To be alive and alert - experiencing all of the technological advances in my life time. When I think of the fact that my parents remember a world without television it's amazing how much has changed in a generation. Even I remember television with limited channels and that it ended at midnight or soon thereafter with the flag waving and the star spangled banner playing!

98) I've been taught (& absorbed this lesson) to be quiet inside. As delighted as I am by all of the technology I am blessed to sit quiet without sights or sounds each day to listen & communicate with my Maker.

99) Despite my frustration at being single - I am SOOO thankful that I'm really learning to observe couples with a critical eye and learn their "dance" moves. I'm in a very good place emotionally. I really do feel as if The Master is guiding me in the ways of loving Womanhood.

100) That I'm loving ME entirely: imperfections AND perfections. This may be one of my greatest life experiences: self acceptance.

The First Thankful Thursday [1-20].
Second Thankful Thursday [21-40].
Third Thankful Thursday [41-60].
Fourth Thankful Thursday [61-80].

Thankful Thursdays [4 of 50]

Twenty of the 1000 Things I'm Thankful I've Experienced in My Lifetime:

61) THIS wonderful Head full of HAIR I've been blessed with!

62) One of my moma's gift to me on my fifth b'day was: NOT COMBING my hair. It's one of my most memorable child hood gifts! LOL! We used to tussle every TIME she had to comb my hair! The quality of the photo didn't scan so well - but u can see I'm the well dressed li'l girl with hair all over her head! LOL! I still recall that day vividly: I sat between my mother's knees in anguish as always: crying, fretting, whining. Then as if by some miracle my mother's knees released and she said, "Happy Birthday! It's your birthday!" Swwwweeeeetttt!

63) Having a sister who was a trained & excellent hair stylist! She used to hook me UP in the eighties with the flyest Asymmetrics! LOL! I was a hair trend setter: I had the ideas and that sister made them happen! Other girls had one V at the back - I layered mine into three V's. Then, I cut a V over one eye - wouldn't you know it - Prince chose that same style afterwards. One of the flyest cuts I had I admit I borrowed from the surfer dudez in college: I got my sister to shave ALL of my hair except for the left side which was eye length... you couldn't tell me I wasn't fierce! I'll have to scan more of my hair photos & show ya one day;-).

64) I also have a nice shaped head - if I ever have to go bald I will not be devastated. I'm presently blessed with lots of hair. I used to wear my hair extremely close in college. My hair is now the longest it's been since I was a child. When I decide to cut it off again, I plan to share the wealth & donate my hair for cancer patients' wigs.

65) The fact that my moma taught us that ALL hair is "good" hair! The statement: "You got GOOD HAIR!" - has always made me feel uncomfortable - and don't really like to have people fawn over my hair - but I do relish hair compliments and don't take them lightly because I am thankful for this blessed crown.

66) I have had some great head massages by loving men in my past. My head is a serious erogenous zone! Luv it when a man (who I'm diggin') plays in my hair.

67) That my head is "more than a hat/wig rack" - as my Daddy often encouraged: "Use your head for more than a hat rack!" I'm thankful that I enjoy a wide variety of books & authors for all age ranges: a mere FEW include = Victor Frankl, MOST Black Authors of the Renaissance & Civil Rights period (Langston Hughes, Alain Locke, Lorraine Hansberry, Nikki Giovanni, Angela Davis, etc.), Edgar Allen Poe, Judy Blume, Mildred Taylor, etc.

68) When I've been able to let my hair down & really cut UP - especially dancing! I love to dance & feel blessed that I can!

69) I enjoyed performing the viola in the DC Youth orchestra when I was in junior high school. Also, I've enjoyed reading my poetry & fiction in front of live audiences as an adult.

70) I've enjoyed so many wonderful, LIVE music performances: my two eldest nephews in the DC youth orchestra -- the eldest played the upright bass, and the younger continues to play the flute (looking forward to what the baby nephew will play/perform). Of course, I enjoyed - DC's Go-Go Bands: Chuck Brown, Rare Essence, Trouble Funk, E. U., JunkYard, etc. along with: Prince, Janet Jackson, Luther Vandross, Gerald LaVert, Maxwell, Eric Roberson, Cassandra Wilson, Me'shell Ndegeocello, Atlantic Star, Midnight Starr, Doug E. Fresh & Slick Rick, Anita Baker, Wynton Marsalis & his band, Abbey Lincoln & her amazing young band, Destiny's Child, Alicia Keyes, John Legend, The Temptations (the original when I was a wee child;-), Patti Labelle, Nona Hendryx, Jerry Butler, Gene Chandler, Al Green, Maxi Priest, Brenda Russell, George Duke, Rachelle Farrell, Chaka Khan, Angela Bofill, Frankie Beverly & Maze, Roy Ayers, Diana Ross, Dee Dee Bridgewater, several symphony orchestra performances, and others I can't recall at the moment...

71) The health & strength that allows me to care for myself! Though I may not be an athlete & never have been physically competitive I was most proud when I successfully ran USN's Battle Stations as the culminating activity required to graduate boot camp in my early thirties. I felt like the tortoise who ran slow & steady that early morning!

72) Regardless of this embarrassing, frustrating medical issue that was the reason for my honorable discharge from the USN I continue to be grateful for God's easy way to keep me humble & motivated to take GOOD care of my health!

73) Despite my struggles to find clothing which fits my figure - I luv that I have inherited a figure that is a wonderful blend of both my parents: My father's slender upper body and my mother's ample lower half;-). No matter what my weight's fluctuation I have learned my figure is consistent in it's proportion.

74) Confidence in knowing that I am able to restore my strength & health through exercise and "aware" eating. This requires constant work and I understand now that there IS no quick fix: only consistency and commitment. Also blessed that I give myself less grief for being human and falling off track...yet firm enough to stay the course.

75) Ran an easy paced mile and a half with my Daddy! His encouragement was priceless.

76) Have run with each of my sisters! It was a great way to visit and motivate each other.

77) Gone for walks with my Moma! Her dogged determination is inspirational.

78) Enjoyed swimming with my Eldest nephew on many occasions. He's truly a water baby. Quick favorite swimming memory: He was hanging out with me when he was about 3 and my sister was scheduled to meet us at the pool that particular day: DC's Capital East for those familiar. My nephew never liked the baby pool and would whine & fret if we dared take him to it. After playing with him and teaching him to blow bubbles under water I begged him to sit on the edge of the pool and watch me swim one lap. He's an intelligent child who spoke in full sentences early, so I knew he understood me. I got to the other end of the pool and looked up expecting to wave to him. He was nowhere in sight! My heart raced as I swam my fastest back to the spot where I left him - thinking that I'd jump out of the pool and run to find him the locker rooms. I got back to that spot and he was under the water! I grabbed him up and he happily spewed water out like a li'l fountain and laughed while I recovered from my "heart attack"!

79) Watching my Middle nephew run like the wind! That child is truly built to run. Watching him run is like watching him breathe - so fluid and easy!

80) Dancing with the Baby nephew - he is the li'l dancing machine! Whenever we put on music he seems to lose the ability to control himself. Generally, he and his elder brother stick together: reserved and watchful in front of company. But, when music is on the baby comes into his own and his brother can't help nor stop him! LOL!


The First Thankful Thursday [1-20].
Second Thankful Thursday [21-40].
Third Thankful Thursday [41-60].

Thankful Thursdays [3 of 50]

Twenty of the 1000 Things I'm Thankful I've Experienced in My Lifetime:

41) Jumped off the cliffs in Jamaica at Rick's Cafe during my first visit there!

42) Walked the Chesapeake Bay Bridge with my Dad, siblings & cousins.

43) Enjoyed fireworks, food & drinks with friends at South Street Seaport, NYC on July 4th, 2006!

44) This move to NYC - living in this fascinating & oft times crazy city!

45) Being born & raised in the Greatest Historically Black City evah: Chocolate City = The Nation's CAPital City: Washington, DC.

46) Attending college in Norfolk, VA - great parties, step shows, the beach, USN sailors & Marines, road trips...Mannn, I enjoyed my college days!

47) Graduated from college - such a blessing!

48) My college graduation party was da balm diggity: family & friends at really nice Chinese restaurant. We sang, drank & ate to our heart's content! Even the restaurant employees enjoyed the entertainment we provided! LOL!

49) Recall learning to cook food from scratch, especially: biscuits, cobblers and poached eggs with my Moma as a young child when I needed to stand on a chair to reach the table top & stove.

50) Cooking a full Thanksgiving Dinner with my mother's assistance in my NYC home.

51) My parents, two siblings and my eldest nephew traveled all the way to Great Lakes, IL to visit with me the weekend that I passed review/graduated from USN Boot Camp.

52) Befriended and continue to keep in touch with the dear friend who helped me maintain my equilibrium during those long days in USN's holding division (where we both waited for them to decide what to do with us;-).

53) Attending church with family/having a "family" church in DC & "down the country".

54) Finding a church home here in NYC.

55) Growing up in the U.S. South & all that's unique to it: Marching Bands (at parades and sporting events' half-times), Church home-comings with plenty of family, laughs & food, hugz when you encounter folk u know, saying hello/speaking when you pass by someone, real food at ALL parties, etc.

56) Growing up at a time where it was safe for me to venture out alone as a child to go play with my friends in the neighborhood - even if they were on the same block.

57) Being taken to nice restaurants by my parents when my siblings and I were young.

58) Feeling confident enough to go to nice restaurants alone when I was in high school.

59) Earning my own money from the time I was 16.

60) So blessed that I was able to manage and save my income enough to provide for me through most of my two years of partial employment. Thankful that The Creator provides me with supportive loved ones AND continues to teach me to manage His Gifts better and better -- be they financial, physical, emotional, etc.


The First Thankful Thursday [1-20].
Second Thankful Thursday [21-40].

Thankful Thursdays [2 of 50]

Twenty of the 1000 Things I'm Thankful I've Experienced in My Lifetime:

**Bonus Blessing for which I'm thankful: Yesterday I signed a contract for full time employment to begin in July! I'll be teaching & tech support again and I'm SO excited!! So thankful to be able to buy my own freedom;-)

21. My paternal Grand Daddy bought me a coat and had me try it on for him. I know he wanted to ensure that it fit, but in my very young mind he wanted me to model it for him. It was my favorite coat: faux fur collar, knee length green corduroy with a zip out lining that could be worn as a jacket by itself. My Grand Daddy passed when I was five - but that memory lives in my heart.

22. My paternal Gramma's chocolate chip cookies, spoon bread & lemon custard! That woman could throw down in the kitchen! I still can taste those three delicacies that she made in my memory! Oh, and the peach & pear preserves that she & my great aunts made were the perfect topping for her spoon bread. My Gramma passed when I was ten - and I am so thankful for all the memories I have of her!

23. Although my parents were born in DC, their parents were all from country areas of Virginia. I didn't always relish that fact - but now am thankful that I had the experience of bathing in a metal hip tub, pumping the water for the bath, using a slop-jar (nevah had the nerve to use that out house - when out doors - that's what woods are for;-). It's funny the unpleasant things that become treasured experiences! LOL! They helped me to really appreciate when that plumbing was installed!

24. Drive-in movies! Mannn, it used to be a supah-dupah treat when our parents bundled us in the car and headed to the drive in! Dressed in jammies, played on the playground before the movie started, the picnic Mama prepared, spread the blankets on top of the car to lay on & watch the show! Begging our parents for money to go to the concession stand only to return with dry-azz popcorn. lol!

25. Being an Aunt to three of the most beautiful young men I have ever met!

26. Being the youngest sister - it's developed characteristics and strength that I could not know that I would ever need.

27. The gifts that The Creator blessed me with so that I may A~muse myself: writing, reading, drawing and the ability to find comfort in uncomfortable times & settings.

28. The love for water and comfort I relish in when I swim.

29. The seven months spent in the U.S. Navy, the successful completion of boot camp and the blessed medical discharge just before this new [present] war-lovin' political administration got into office!

30. Although I never met my maternal grandparents, due to their early deaths -- I was blessed with their photos since I've become an adult! These are a rare treasure.

31. I was a lifeguard for a couple of summers and really living GOLDEN then;-)

32. My lifeguard course was SOOOO much fun and taught by DC's FOINEST! Goood Lawwd the memory of those Brothahs: All shapes, hues & heights of FOINE caramel chocolateness!!

33. Growing up in the hood with its treats that were hood-unique: the record truck, the bookmobile, the greens & vegetable truck, the candy lady & MY fave: The Watermelon man who came through on his truck sangin' his melody: "Watah Melon, get ya ice cold Waaatah Melon!!" while my buddy from up the street & I would follow in his wake dancin' & sangin' along with him! LOL!

34. Walking in the Summer rain barefoot - delicious!

35. Skiing with friends & colleagues - I love feeling the elements & the winter breeze flowing by. Some of the funny episodes that happened while skiing have been priceless, too!

36. Sledding, creating angels & snowball fights in the snow as a kid. Doesn't seem to snow as deeply or as often as it used to in DC.

37. Warming up inside after being out in the Winter elements: At ski lodge bar Hot Chocolate with that extra "splash", as a kid Mama's extra special Hot Chocolate with marshmallows as we lay our mittens & socks in the oven and cracked up if one got too crisp.

38. My first trip to the ocean beach was incredible. I was about ten or so, when my Daddy drove my siblings and I across the Chesapeake Bay bridge to Ocean City at night! The terror of that "noise" coming from the blackness caused me to have a tight grip on my Dad's hand. Then the draw of that frothiness that kept rolling up onto the shore...eventually we waded in and I have been in love with beaches ever since!!

39. My Daddy drove my siblings, my childhood best friend and I to visit with some of our relatives in "the country" during a snow storm when I was about 13 or 14. We arrived safely, went walking and playing in the snow with our cousins and my "crush" gave me a piggy back ride!

40. My country "crush" taught me to drive stick-shift when I was 16 and he was 18. ***Huge Sigh***

The First Thankful Thursday [1-20].

BlueBe Not Afraid Mondays, III

Welcome Back for the 3rd installment of:

F &%k
E verything
A nd
R un
-or-
F ace
E verything
A nd
R ejoice

Here lately, it's been seemingly "little", insidious things that I've been attempting to rid my soul-house of; like clearing out cobwebs. Cobwebs themselves aren't scary, but no "haunted" house is complete without them! It takes diligence and constant effort to keep our homes and minds clear of those cobwebs that seem to come "outta nowhere". What are the cobwebs you're fighting with? Here are a few of mine.

Sometimes I have felt the need to: F.%&k E.verything A.nd R.un:
1. I doubt that the stories I write are worthy of being published - especially when I read my favorite authors - the greats: Langston Hughes, Beverly Jenkins, etc.
2. After what felt like a comfortable and confident interview -- the fact that they didn't call me back immediately to beg me to work for them -- makes me wonder what I said or did to cause them to hesitate.

I'm Proud when I have: F.aced E.verything A.nd R.ejoiced by taking action:
1. Continue to write. Read journals of authors I admire and learn that they were also doubtful of their skill.
2. Pray and continue to know that The Creator really is placing me where I belong in this life. It is also important to make sure I am patient and remember who exactly is in control here.

Past Discussion(s) on this topic:
Faith to Get You Through.
Determined to Live Courageously!

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2008 Will Be Great: As I Continue to Spread My Wings

There are a mere eleven days left in 2007. This past year has been wonderfully full of learning and seed planting for me. Often times, harvesting the best life-crops is rough: lots of rock-hard thought patterns and debris to be worked around, over and out as I prepare the ground work.

I've come out of my writer's shell and been blessed to join a new book project. I've spent time with some incredible authors (both established and budding) who encourage and inspire me to keep-a comin' on as Brother Sterling Brown did. Proudly, there is substance building in my first novel, featuring Reyna - who you'll meet in the new book project. God willing that first novel will be birthed/published by Fall 2008. I have developed an educational work book and workshop for parents who need assistance in selecting schools then helping their children through school once enrolled. That website will be launched in early 2008. Slowly, I am learning prosperity principles and that networking is a noble skill. I have made some incredible contacts with others who are life-long entrepreneurs who welcome me to their "fold" as long as they see that I'm about my hustle, too. I have read many truly inspirational books (including the one pictured above: The Bond) which have helped me understand myself better, as well as, my place in the world. I feel my relationships are getting richer as a result.

All of this growth and development was going on as I entered into my second year of partial employment. This partial employment experience has taught me that I really will be alright despite the chaos thrown at me by the world. This year of partial employment snatched the controlling reins from my grip as I was forced to accept the blessings offered and to trust as folx (too many to list here, for now:-) have stepped in to support me in a myriad of ways (thanx to them I haven't lost an ounce;-). This year's self reflection has revealed that I need to return to the independent school world to continue to grow where I was rooted.

May ALL of us take flight in what I trust will be a GREAT 2008 filled with Love, Life and Dancing in the Prosperity of Our Blessings!

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Wednesday Wisdoms & Wonders

Today I am observing a "moment" of silence in honor & respect for the losses suffered on Sept. 11, 2001. See yesterday's post for a wise scripture. Thank you.

Stronger & better than ever - six years later

I mark my anniversary of living in NYC with today; the monumental day on which the most tragic event occurred in my lifetime. I moved here a month prior to the unfortunate loss (almost to the day). My heart and prayers go out to all of us - because we have all been affected in some way.

"Then I will command my blessing upon you in the sixth year and it shall bring forth fruit..." Liviticus 25:21 KJV


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Coming 'round slowly...

I'm still picking myself up & will not be posting the next part of Life, Love & Dancing as planned, yet. Then I saw this and I was reminded that I will be okay, too. Just so you won't be too freaked out - yes, he did get up & walk on his own off the floor...

This is an extreme visual reminder that sometimes in order to enjoy the amazing ride of Life - we're gonna experience some harrowing "stumbles"... Be Blessed!

Thanx 4 another Award:-)

I'm honored that Andrew of The Abyss would award me the:


According to what I could understand of the rules I'm supposed to pass this award onto five others! I'm so awful at selections because I was always that last kid waiting to be chosen on teams...but, i'll do my best...
SO, If the definition of schmooze is (according to freedictionary.com):

"To converse casually, especially in order to gain an advantage or make a social connection.

v.tr."

Then the following have the power of schmooze:
1) Shai - she drew me to this whole blog-o-sphere by posting about her blog interactions on Ms. B's site.
2) Keshi - She's that funny Indian/Sri Lankan, fashion-conscious chica from "Down Undah" who keeps the bloggers chatting...with hundreds of comments each post!
3) Dezel - he gets out & really connects at vineyards & wine events. My mouth waters every time I visit his highly professional blog:-).
4) Kiki - she's down to earth and doin' her thang as she gets her own business off the ground - that's inspirational schmoozing:-).
5) Jac - his blog is a window to his soul AND the world that he has pulled in with his charm & warm spirit:-).

I hope u enjoy those bloggers as much as I do!

Thanx 2 All My Supah Stahs

To those who make me feel like a Supah Stah - Thanx - I hope I've returned the "fayvah"(thanx 2 Sistah JMW for 'hipping' me to this HeartFelt video:-):

May U ALL enjoy the Fathers in Your Life: Earthly & Heavenly on this & every day.
*P.S. To those, like Brother Ced, who noticed I haven't taken that summer break as "promised" - I'm coasting by sharing ideas of others for now;-).

Rest In Peace

Memorial Weekend 2007: May all my hang-ups Rest In Peace.

Thanks to those who served in all the wars that lead to my freedoms.
Thanks to those who came before me and fought for their lives simply for the freedom to live allowing me to burst forth and live freely as I do.

Thanks to the painful and often brutal experiences of my parents and my ancestors I'm pock filled with insecurities, fears, and anxieties. Not to mention a host of mental and physical quirks and idiosyncrasies.

Thanks to the passion, intensity and audacity of my parents and my ancestors to love in spite of their "ignorance and inability" I'm overladen with this..."senseless" faith in...a Higher power and in all that is living. Not to mention a host of endearing qualities and handsome genes.

So, I'd like to take this opportunity to lay My Issues To Rest.

All the BULL shit that cuts us deeply without laying one finger on us...Rest In Peace.

All the childhood taunts, the grown-up injustices and -isms, the social inequities that cause conflicts within ourselves...
may you all
REST.
IN.
PEACE.