Saturday, November 21, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
MORE Great Newz This 2009!
ConGRATS Ali & Zay!
Click on image for Her Daddy's Info!
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Love Needs Us & I need Luv/Prayer
2010 is a Monumental B'EarthDay Year for me. I plan & pray to reach the following Goals in 3 months - by my birthday on January 22, 2010:
- Weigh no more than 150 lbs., wear size 10 pants with ease & have toned muscles - all over, but especially in my arms!
- Complete & publish my first novel (to publish with Harlem Writer's Guild:-)
Thanks in advance for the prayer & Luv sent my way. Now - please enjoy this compilation video project:
Friday, October 2, 2009
YAYYY! Some GOOD News In 2009:-)
In the midst of so much loss - The Creator reminds us that Life GOES ON!
I want to Honor a Blog-Sistah of ours who gave birth 2 a beautiful baby boy!
Sharon - U r my S-hero & a true Queen. U give us sistahs over 35 such inspiration!
Born 9/28/09, weight: 7lbs 13 ounces, length: 21 1/4 inches. Mom and son are both spectacular!!!
*photo lifted from Sharon's facebook page, I hope that's alright:-). Just wanted to share him & your amazing-ness with the world! Click her name & Baby's photo to get to her blog!
Monday, September 7, 2009
Reflections ...on LOSS & LUV ...
This year, 2009 has been filled with a great DEAL of loss: quite a few celebrities & public figures, some family members & blog/internet family. I tend to lead a solitary existence - sometimes I choose this isolation because I think it'll make it easier because I won't experience the pain of losing loved ones if I don't "have" loved ones. I'm discovering that even choosing to live life behind the electronic curtain does not protect the heart. When Nikki passed & I discovered I was actually disturbed by it I became frightened at the prospect of losing Blog/Internet "family" who I have actually developed a real life relationship with and truly grown close to.
At the same time, being the conundrum that I am, I love people and am quite a social being. I've finally re-opened my heart to Love on a variety of levels: self-love, friendships, romance, even reaffirming family connections. I'm learning that it's the LOSS of Love that hurts - not the actual LOVING of others. Life without Love - as the "cliche" goes: really is not worth living.
Reflections are a funny thing... I had no idea this post would lead me to the renewal of Love. But, I guess there is No Loss if there is No Love. Hmm, that's deep. I need to go reflect on that a bit more. Peace, Blessings & MUCH Luv 2 U!
Monday, August 31, 2009
Rest in Peace - 2 One of the most PASSIONATE bloggers EVER: Nikki Harris
Wow... I was shocked to learn from fellow blogger, DC that the ever feisty blogger, Nikki (blog-author of Indigo Trails) has passed onto "the other side". Brother Dyssturbed Mined shared the details of the cause of her death.
Thanx DC for the memorial service information. If you are a blogger in the ATL area - please attend, if possible:
Nikki Harris Memorial Service. Gregory B. Levett & Sons 4347 Flat Shoals Parkway Decatur, GA 30034 404-241-5656 12:30 p.m. to 2:00 p.m. Saturday, September 5, 2009
To be honest I'm really feeling some kind of way about the loss of this blog-sistah. I never met her & I didn't always like her raw writings, but she made me FEEL something EVERY TIME I read her work and for that I'm thankful. Nikki is the first member of my extended blog-family that I have lost. She seemed too young & too vibrant to be gone already. Of course, I'm not The Creator & have no "say" in the time that anyone spends on Earth. All that to say: I, too will miss Nikki - a woman I never met, but was touched by just the same.
The image is courtesy of Nikki's facebook page.
Monday, August 24, 2009
RePost: Just Want to Show Love...
to a Man I've Never Met,
but he still made me -- ;-)
... and then Strip For Him
with the following words that Sistah Helesi turned me onto:
*these words make me giddy...
Strip for me - by Lamar Hill
She said she wanted to have sex with strings attached
but only to her arms and wrist
Said she had had her heart broken too many times to ever walk down that road again
she said she only wanted to partake in the physical
said she wanted me to fill her chest with my treasure
then afterwords pretend as if I had never even met her
but there was something about the way her insides taste
after they had marinated over night
that made me wonder what it would take to have this woman wake up next to me for the rest of my life
to abandon my feelings of abandonment
to make every women who came before her a blur
see the fact of the matter is I want to reinvent the wheel with her
I want to find deffirent reasons to fall in love every single minute
that's why I contimplate diffrent positions to keep her interested every time i'm in it
that's why I treat her sweat like holy water
trying to absorb every drop into my skin
so when I'm going through the hardships of my day I can always revert back to her skin
so I told her to Strip for me
told her to take off that thing that makes it impossible for her to commit
and commit to getting rid of it
told her to take off the stigma of failed relationships in the past
told her to slide out of her ex man
told her to take off all the baggage, and just lie in front of me naked
told her sex was cool
but making love is sacred
forget how you stayed up until all hours of the night
wondering if he was even gone bother to come home tonight
forget the bump and bruses
the lies and excuses
the mediocre sex that he didn't even bother to shower for
cause in my eyes you a virgin
pure as the darkest night
and sure you might have given your body away a few times
but you never bothered to open your mind
so in the same way the moon has power over the sea
you have power over me
and I won't be satisfied until you come nine times
why nine?
cause nine is the number of completion
it serves notice to the creator that we have found peace within
but first I need you to strip for me
Take off all the memories of every ill fated one night stand
every failed second chance
all the nights wanting romance
take off all the misery
thinking you had to endure his bullshit
cause ya'll had history
I want you to unbutton the suffering
slide out of the doubt
cause it's all about you
everytime I walk in the room I'm consumed by the power that exudes from your womb
and he was a fool not to pay homage to a goddess
your body is timeless
I want you to strip for me
soul bare
mind open
Focused
believe you deserve love just like the rest
believe your body can be used for more then sex
I want you to strip for me
emotionally
then I want us to start new
I want you to strip for me
cause I've already stripped for you.
Unfortunately, there's no YouTube version of him reading it, but u MUST check his MySpace page just to hear a voice that'll make the ladies wanna melt....
http://www.myspace.com/lamarhill
Had 2 REPOST after I was blessed 2 meet Brother Lamar Anthony Hill at: Taalam Acey Presents_DemystifyNYC, Bowery Poetry Club on Wednesday, May 27, 2009.
Wow! 2 years & 3 days after original posting ...
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
So Thankful 2 Be Among The Living!!
There have been too many who have left this Earthly realm sooner than it seems necessary (including members of my family)! I may not BE The Creator (so, who am I to really say they "left too soon"?) - but, I will heed the lessons that are put around me BY The Creator!
- Be Encouraged!
- Be SO THANKFUL that I do no complaining w/ these LIPS
- ACTIVELY LIVE & Enjoy THIS ONE chance I have on this earth!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Relishing in the REST of THE SUMMER...
... and I hope U R, too! Enjoy the REST & RELAXATION of easy, breezy (often stormy;-) lazy summer dayz! See a HOT, FUN taste of my summer here:
Friday, June 26, 2009
Say What U will - but there's NO denying....
This is the MOST famous individual AFTER Jesus! Name ONE other person who was as WORLD famous by the time they were ten years old. I don't think it's possible. Jesus died - left this earth at the age of 33. No human should have been this famous, especially not as young as he was... it is the reason he is so troubled, in my opinion (in addition to the stress & abuse he endured). U may not like him, but there is NO denying his WORLD wide fame and influence. Can U IMAGINE the F&%ery and general mayhem that will ensue when this MAN dies? If you have ever been lucky enough to see him live I hope you saved those ticket stubs &/or photos because they will be as valuable to your children and grandchildren as any of the best stocks on the market. And you can quote me on that;-).
**This was originally posted on 8/26/07. And My originally chosen video has been removed from youtube - but this one serves the purpose:
Wow! Michael Jackson left this earthly realm The Day Before MY Earthly Father's 73rd B'EarthDay. This was originally posted August 26th, 2007 and MJ passed away June 25th, 2009. I have ALWAYZ loved your talents even if I never MET nor KNEW YOU, Michael. I am THANKFUL for the works that you have blessed this earth with!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I think I can STAND THE RAIN... can U?
It's been a RAINY Spring & I've noticed many facebk & twitter comments about it. My Father sometimes jokes about making sure we have sturdy umbrellas cuz it just may "Cloud up & S%$*!" How would U like THEM APPLES? LOL!
I love sunshine as much as the next "SUN GODDESS" - but I don't REALLY feel right about complaining about ANYthing that's created by MotherNature - especially since I'm SO BLESSED! Now, I'm hoping I don't have to "eat my words" because I'm taking another leap of faith and seriously opening my mind & heart to the possibilities of sharing my life w/ someone special - someone that Jesus loves & I'll try my best to do the same! Yes, I. AM. DATING w/ intentions of marriage. I still believe in soul mates - I'm just becoming a bit more active in the process of connecting with mine;-).
Here's my Melting Point Episode where I discuss taking Social Networking to a whole NEW level! Stay tuned & keep me in prayer!
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Bikram, V'logging & I'm SO READY 4 SummerTIME
It's gonna be a HOTTTT Summer THIS 2009!
1) I've completed 5 days of Bikram Yoga in seven days and have been told that I'm now addicted (& they may be right;-).
2) I was too excited by the writing partnerships developed in the Blog-o-sphere. Now, I'm delighted to announce my partnership in the v'log-o-sphere with ThaBombSquad! Here's one of my v'logs on ThaBombSquad's channel:
3) It's been slow getting here - but I'm SOOOO READY 4 SUMMERTIME! that's all...:-)
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Working Hard 2 Be THE Change ... while makin' a li'l change;-)
In addition to writing & teaching I've begun to v'log about my health & weight-loss journey on CAPTv - my YouTube Channel. I am determined to Melt from size 14 down to 10. Once I reach my goal size I'm going to sculpt this EarthWear - God willing! In appreciation of my viewer ship - I'm giving away prizes as I travel to different Cities & various parts of Cities I hold near & dear - so, tune in!
Here's the first Prize winning episode for u 2 enjoy:
So, if U don't see me around the Blog-o-sphere - know that I'm still working HARD at making changes!
Hugz 2 ya;-)
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
My Newest Fascination!
Brother D-Nice's photography is amazing & his cinematic skills are superb! Click here & check out his website to see more. I've merely posted one of his videos to whet your appetite;-).
True Hip-Hop Stories: Sadat X of Brand Nubian from D-Nice on Vimeo.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
In case U haven't noticed...
I have a YouTube Channel & have started a "reality" show: CAP's Melting Point (in which viewers watch as I discover my melting point - from a size 14 to goal size 10:-). Here's the latest episode:
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Inaugural Connections - one of many blessings
Click on the image to see more of his work and learn about his One Word Project. Enjoy!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Had an Inaugural BALLL!!!
Just a glimpse of the Fantastic time I enjoyed during the MLK, jr. Holiday & Inauguration of President Barack Obama:
Hanging out on MLK's Holiday at the spot: Next Door. Then in front of their ice sculpture!
One of the Obama-prenuer's on U st. -
Federico Frum: graphic artist & screen printer.
Click his image to check his blogspot.
Inauguration Day:
Crowds @ Orange, Blue & Silver Gates:
The Inauguration Ceremony:
Monday, January 12, 2009
It's all about Dropping....
.... by DROPPING:
... Excuses
... Guards
... Weight
... Restrictions on self
... Negativity
and gettin' funky as I reclaim my Swagga!
I never get tired of that groove!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
2009 I'm Reclaiming what's mine: Swagga!!
Last Saturday I joined several seasoned sistah friends to provide comfort & healing for one who had just cleaned her home of a relationship. As the elders say - when you do good for others you get good in return. One of the sistahs READ me & I know that I needed to hear it. Some of you may be surprised to learn that my swagga has been teetering on stagga. But, I am thankful for new beginnings and opportunities to reclaim my swagga!
When I moved to NYC in 2001 The Creator had this amazing Sistah take me in until I could find my own place. She gently shared that I was hiding - although she used different terminology. As I posted on Sunday, three years ago I talked to this Brother Andrew Morrison at my church and he also gently shared his observation that I seemed to be hiding even though I am out in plain sight. In hindsight, Brother R. Fitzgerald said similar regarding why I'm a challenge for brothers - but I wasn't getting it. Well, the sistah who read me stated exactly how she observed me hiding out in the open - cuz I haven't been hearing the gentle nudgings of those before her. She stated: 1) that she could tell I had been hurt in past relationships and that it's time to let that go (I thought I had - but apparently not!;-). 2) Despite my training that good sistahs "don't" - it's okay to get to know more than one man at a time (just play safe!;-). And 3) She gave me specific actions for coming out of hiding (Thanx - I NEEDED that!)! Then I stopped by Clnmike's blog on Sunday and he's posted a Deal Breaker list that speaks loud & clear!
Ok, Creator - I GET it! I need to step out on faith in a different way than I have been. All of my cocky rantings have not been reflected in my actions toward myself. So, my mantra (& my actions) for 2009: Time to Step INTO the light that is MINE (no more shadow boxing)!!
Click on image for source.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
2009 Really IZ my year to SHINE!
The Creator has been speaking to yelling at me through some key folks since I was sent from DC on this quest here in NY. This Brother Andrew Morrison grabbed my attention three years ago at a seminar he offered at my NYC Home Church. Since The Creator brought Andrew into my life I have been stepping more & more into my light!
Thanx Andrew for all of your help, support & for mentioning me in this 11th Episode of your 16 Week Challenge Reality Show:
One of the best parts of Andrew's 16 Week Challenge reality show is his ability to bring people together! It's not too late to participate in more episodes while they are live. It's my year to shine - it can be yours, too!
Click on the link below & enjoy the connections!
www.16weekchallenge.com
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Thankful Thursdays [12 of 50]: '09 = Time 2 Shine!
Twenty-one of the 1000 Things I'm Thankful I've Experienced in My Lifetime:
221) HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
I'm so thankful to be here to see a NEW YEAR: 2009!
222) I enjoyed time with family and friends during this Holiday Season.
223) I helped my mother celebrate her 7? birthday (I still have no idea the age of most of the women in my family! LOL!)
224) I have great genes! At 40+ most think I'm in my late 20s or early 30s;-).
225) I'm young enough to appreciate that I came of age with Hip-Hop.
226) I'm old enough to appreciate Classic Ole Skool R&B.
227) I'm DC raised enough to appreciate Go-Go;-).
228) DC used to be called "De Country" by some family members;-), so I'm also country enough to enjoy the "new" music genre from Da Durteh;-).
229) My life experience is broad enough that I appreciate a wide variety of music genres from Blue Grass, Opera, Gospel, House, Classical, Jazz, Blues, International/World, (easy) Rock, pretty much anything except that hard-core, head-banging acid type of rock;-).
230) That I can sit still! That "small" skill has gotten me into a lot of places & kept me out of a lot of trouble;-).
231) I'm a supah stah! Love isn't something we earn - we deserve it! Tell 'em Floetry:
232) I am loving!
233) I am lovable!
234) I am forgiving!
235) I am forgivable!
236) I am beautiful inside AND OUT!
237) I appreciate the beauty in & around me!
238) I am music!
239) I am JOY!
240) I am DANCING through this LIFE! Join me - cuz ... u can dance if u want to;-)
*Disclaimer: some of the above may be repeats that have appeared on this blog before - and tha's FINE, too! LOL!!
The First Thankful Thursday [1-20].
Second Thankful Thursday [21-40].
Third Thankful Thursday [41-60].
Fourth Thankful Thursday [61-80].
Fifth Thankful Thursday [81-100].
Sixth Thankful Thursday [101-120]
Seventh Thankful Thursday [121- 140].
Eighth Thankful Thursday [141-160].
Ninth Thankful Thursday [161-180].
Tenth Thankful Thursday [181-200].
Eleventh Thankful Thursday [201-220].
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